A Healthy Baby – Birth Poetry Contest

All she wanted was to birth a healthy baby
She was excited about the months ahead
She knew her baby was a blessing
She wanted what was best
She changed her diet and started exercising
She wanted to birth a healthy baby
So she did what the books and websites told her

All she wanted was to birth a healthy baby
A boy is what they told her
She never NEEDED an ultrasound
She knew EXACTLY when the one night of passion that created the life happened
She wanted the gender to be a surprise
Her measurements were always right on target
She never really wanted an ultrasound
But they made her feel like something could be wrong
Something that only the magic wand with goopy gel could tell her
She wanted to birth a healthy baby
So she conceded and did what her providers told her

All she wanted was to birth a healthy baby
They said the baby looked big
Just last week, her measurements were right on target
She did not understand
She wanted to birth a healthy baby
Would his size really make a difference?
Before now she had faith in her body
But they made her feel unsure
She wanted to birth a healthy baby
So she listened, and scheduled another ultrasound

All she wanted was to birth a healthy baby
The repeat ultrasound showed the baby had gained more weight
How accurate are those things anyway?
Wasn?t the baby supposed to be gaining weight?
Nine pounds didn?t sound too big to her
Big babies ran in her family!
But predictions of a term birth weight of 10lbs made her doubtful
Her trust in her innate abilities began to fade. She became fearful
She wanted to birth a healthy baby
So she listened to her providers and scheduled her induction with a closed cervix, and intense fear

She came as she was instructed at 5am
She had gotten no sleep,
She had eaten no food
She was operating off adrenaline, and she was full of fear and anticipation
She wanted to birth a healthy baby
So she followed the rules and listened to what they said was best
The entire day seemed to be a rapidly moving blur of various demands, commands, and instructions

Put on this gown
Get in this bed
Let me start this IV
We are going to start Pitocin
You have to keep still
You have to stay in bed
You have to keep the monitors on
They are here to break your water
No you can?t get out of bed
We need to use these internal monitors
No you can?t have any water and certainly no food
Here? are a few ice chips
Didn?t your doctor tell you how this was going to go?!
Yes of course it?s painful
YOU should get an epidural and for the last time NO you can?t get out of bed
I am glad you are finally comfortable
Let me put this tube in your bladder, you won?t feel it
Hope you don?t get an infection
We are going to increase the Pitocin
Your baby?s heart rate dropped
Quick, turn to your left side
Breathe this oxygen
You are only 4 cm dilated
I?m going to call your doctor
Open the OR its 5PM!
Lets get her ready for her c/section?..

All she wanted was to birth a healthy baby
In her heart she wanted to speak up,
But she wanted to birth a healthy baby so she took their advice
She listened to her doctor
She listened to her nurse
When all along she was waiting for someone, anyone, is there one? all she wanted was one,
One person to hear HER voice
One person to help make HER voice louder and stronger

All she wanted was to birth a healthy baby?.and it seems everyone else, just wanted to control the process

Nicole Deggins, CNM -? www.yourbirthright.com
This poem was used as the opening to a presentation I gave at the national AWHONN Conference in San Diego Presentation title:? Using the Evidence to Reclaim the Role of Patient Advocate.

This is a part of the birth poetry contest.

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One Response to A Healthy Baby – Birth Poetry Contest

  1. Kathy says:

    This was powerful! Thank you for sharing.

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